The positive power of chaos

The positive power of chaos

May this year be filled with fear and the Hindu goddess Akhilanda ride on your fear, embrace your fault and use them to find strength to surf the wave of darkness through which the light can shine...

A place of strength

Akhilanda which translates as the never not broken goddess lives her life in pieces, unlike the idea that we have to see it as disastrous, hitting rock bottom can be very positive. The never not broken goddess derives her strength from being pulled apart and refuses to rejects her fear nor she is controlled by them. Instead she holds herself in that middle space where fears and darkness are necessary to move forward and reflect light. From those times of darkness and despair we can see ourselves under the microscope, examining all those bits and pieces trying to figure out why we are stuck in the same toxic life going, repeating the same mistakes and going around in circles. All that was hidden is suddenly opened and exposed, there is no running away, no one to hold responsible for the not so pleasant experience but ourselves. Our greatest strength comes from that place where we are broken into pieces. Nothing to loose, the believes, opinions that we once hold true and kept us in a box do not stand true anymore and we are left totally open to what comes next, without any boundaries. At this point the choice is ours to moan and cry and diving deeper into the abyss of darkness or rise up, awaken the inner peaceful warrior to get back on track and beyond.
Look at yourself, embrace your faults and your fear without being controlled by them  and derive your power from them! Just like the goddess Akhilanda riding on the crocodile (symbol of our reptilian brain that holds our fear) uses her limitation to move forward and unlimited going with the flow of life rather than against it. Holding her own fear in respect, distancing from them but yet not rejecting them either.

"Please shatter my heart and create a new room to hold limitless love." Rumi

Time for reflection

Rough times are a time for reflection and creation. Akhilanda is often compared to a prism that multiplies the reflection and colours of lights.
When you are torn and cut open is the best time for reflection. Seeing what we do not (want to) see. The map of our life and ourself is flat opened before us.  It is an opportunity to step back and take the time to contemplate what has happened, what is happening and choose in which direction we want to go, how de we want to pull ourselves back together. It is a time where we are free to go in many direction, new direction we would not dare to go because of our mental, social, cultural limitation a time where we are everywhere and nowhere, no ties holding us back, everything is possible, all it takes is to want it. It is like a prism, broken into pieces, the lights reflects and take many different colours shining through the cracks of our broken pieces. Being broken is an opportunity to learn, grow stronger, reveal new reflections of our own light. Destruction is necessary to pull things apart, reconstruct beauty and light if we choose to. As yoga teacher Stoneberg explains :
"Akhilanda is also sometimes described in our lineage like a spinning, multi-faceted prism. Imagine the Hope Diamond twirling in a bright, clear light. The light pouring through the bevelled cuts of the diamond would create a whirling rainbow of colour. The diamond is whole and complete and BECAUSE it’s fractured, it creates more diverse beauty. Its form is a spectrum of whirling colour. "
But light needs darkness to exist. Light and darkness constantly co exist. If the goddess of war and death kali is a fierce warrior, destructive and ego crusher to build beauty and peace, Akhilanda takes us deep into darkness to find light.
Life is perfectly imperfect and for good reason. Maintaining the balance of light and darkness. Creation and destruction, endlessly flowing and transforming ourselves to create that fictional reality of life. We are already “never not broken.” We were never a consistent, limited whole. In our brokenness, we are unlimited.
Thanks for reading, enjoy the practice!